||[Aug. 20th, 2005|11:14 am]
school makes me nervous.|
changing of the major will be a process.
recruitment will be a process.
adjusting to not having my favorites down the street, will be a huuge process,
even though i've done for three summers now.
seeing everyone again, will be amazing.
knowing that david & sethy & krissi are not there, will not be so amazing. at all.
i think it's just that turning point in my life.
that i really just want to know where i'm going.
and what i should do, and who i should be with.
and what people i should completely surround myself with.
and those people that i can live without.
that i can finally fucking live without.
but i don't feel settled in any of it at all.
i feel like i should just pick up and move to key west, too ;)
cause that would make me feel better than i do here.
well not here, cause i feel perfectly fine here.
at school, i mean.
i miss my extended day-ers.
as in lea, matt, mark & elena.
i missss youuuuu. i miss seeing you everyday.
it's weird, cause these people that i have basically only known through extended day...turned out to be just as amazing people outside of that little school.
and i love it. soo much.
i feel like i'm stuck in this stupid little cycle that has me saying goodbyes more often than i say hellos. and i don't like it at all. not one bit.
seeing most of those people at school will be awesome.
i've mended some rough patches, i would like to think.
and i've created some even bigger ones.
actually i didn't, but you did. and now i have to deal with it.
blaah i have 8 days. 8 fucking better be amazing, still in the burg days.
tomorrow/monday: new jersey/ct
tuesday: day with daddy/ mark's bday party :) yayyy
wednesday-saturday: up for grabs. come hang out with me loverrrrs.
sunday: MOVING IN. EEEEEEEEEEEK!