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(no subject) [Oct. 5th, 2005|04:28 pm]
i'm retiring my livejournal.
i'm like 99.9% sure of it.
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(no subject) [Sep. 8th, 2005|02:35 pm]
ah yes i am back at school.
in my glorious apartment. in the woodlands community. i feel like i'm living in a retirement home.
besides all that illegal shit thats goin on.

speaking of which, our apartment got yelled at. :(
apparently there was a fire alarm and they searched the apartments
and we had like eight million empties everywhere.
oh well, no written warnings.
and that was our official kick in the ass to watch ourselves.

classes are alright.
i changed my major.
so now i'm in art education, with a concentration in photography.
pretty decent...i have only one studio though, and the rest are lectures.

it'll take some getting used to.
but these are my classes:
photo III
art and culture of ancient mexico
child psych
then two art ed classes...possibly three.

i had a rough night last nite.
i missed david a ton. and sethy. and krissi.
and home. in general. especially ms. tomkins.
but i knew that was going to happen.
and to cheer both me and david up,
and since i was going to anyway cause i love him so much,
i asked him to this little thing called the emerald ball :D
that's our sorority's semi formal in november.
so now i'm happy. at least happier.

once everything is settled and i have classes and goddamn rush is over,
it'll be ten times better. i know it will be.
plus, it's not bad at all now. i just had a rough nite,
and considering all the other nights i've been here, that's not bad if i have one.

i'm desperate for a job. i'm avoiding driving with my life.
but i neeeeeeeed a job. sooooo bad.
i wish someone could just be like here, work here, no need to apply, you're hired.
and you have all the skills already, what luck!
but nooooooooooooooooooooo.

ah well. i figured i'd update so you'd know i'm alive.
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(no subject) [Aug. 28th, 2005|02:43 pm]
i absolutely love sarah tomkins.

and the absolutely gorgeous flowers she brought me :)
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(no subject) [Aug. 28th, 2005|11:04 am]
i smile to myself as i sing
'cause i know that these days
will be memories, specially made for me
i know i'll look back
smiling at the things we say, crazy games we play
i know, sweet memories... j.a.

four hours 'til departure time haha
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hahaha [Aug. 27th, 2005|06:32 pm]
Your Fortune Is

Man with hole in pocket feel cocky all day.

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(no subject) [Aug. 27th, 2005|06:30 pm]
right now.

this time tomorrow...i will be checking into willow 2206b for the remainder of the year.

i'm gonna miss this stupid town. :/
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(no subject) [Aug. 26th, 2005|01:37 pm]
i can never just be okay with everyone.
as soon as one person is back,
another one is gone.
and i don't think it's possible to even piss off as many people as i have in the last week or so.

but, surprise, i did it.
and it's making me want to go back to school so much right now.
but for all the wrong reasons.
i don't want to leave like this, all not happy and shit.

i had this permanent good mood.
for like a full month, it was everything i could have wanted.
and then it just all fell apart.

i guess i'm good at that though,
just letting things fall apart.
don't act like you don't know it, too.
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(no subject) [Aug. 20th, 2005|11:14 am]
school makes me nervous.

changing of the major will be a process.
recruitment will be a process.
adjusting to not having my favorites down the street, will be a huuge process,
even though i've done for three summers now.

seeing everyone again, will be amazing.
knowing that david & sethy & krissi are not there, will not be so amazing. at all.

i think it's just that turning point in my life.
that i really just want to know where i'm going.
and what i should do, and who i should be with.
and what people i should completely surround myself with.
and those people that i can live without.
that i can finally fucking live without.

but i don't feel settled in any of it at all.
i feel like i should just pick up and move to key west, too ;)
cause that would make me feel better than i do here.
well not here, cause i feel perfectly fine here.
at school, i mean.

i miss my extended day-ers.
as in lea, matt, mark & elena.
i missss youuuuu. i miss seeing you everyday.
it's weird, cause these people that i have basically only known through extended day...turned out to be just as amazing people outside of that little school.
and i love it. soo much.

i feel like i'm stuck in this stupid little cycle that has me saying goodbyes more often than i say hellos. and i don't like it at all. not one bit.

seeing most of those people at school will be awesome.
i've mended some rough patches, i would like to think.
and i've created some even bigger ones.
actually i didn't, but you did. and now i have to deal with it.

blaah i have 8 days. 8 fucking better be amazing, still in the burg days.

tomorrow/monday: new jersey/ct
tuesday: day with daddy/ mark's bday party :) yayyy
wednesday-saturday: up for grabs. come hang out with me loverrrrs.
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(no subject) [Aug. 14th, 2005|09:02 pm]
ahhh the summer.
i love you summer.

i hate you fall/winter.
i don't wannaaaa go back to school.
i don't wanna go to class.
i don't want the drama, drama, drama.

but there's nothing i can do about it. so i might as well suck it up and make it an absolutely amazing time.

i've been in this ridiculously good mood lately. some of you will chalk it up to a certain "situation" that i don't want to jinx myself with. and maybe that's true.

but i've grown up so much. and i love it. i love knowing who i am and being as strong as this. and knowing what i can finally walk away from, even if it did take me practically forever. and i've been so much happier. so much better, that i can see it in myself. my negativity is somewhat lifting, and i have waited so so long for that to happen, i've waited what seems like forever to feel like me again.

let me tell you,
it's fucking awesome.
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(no subject) [Aug. 13th, 2005|09:56 am]
1. Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written.
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