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[Aug. 20th, 2005|11:14 am]
morgs
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school makes me nervous.
changing of the major will be a process. recruitment will be a process. adjusting to not having my favorites down the street, will be a huuge process, even though i've done for three summers now.
seeing everyone again, will be amazing. knowing that david & sethy & krissi are not there, will not be so amazing. at all.
i think it's just that turning point in my life. that i really just want to know where i'm going. and what i should do, and who i should be with. and what people i should completely surround myself with. and those people that i can live without. that i can finally fucking live without.
but i don't feel settled in any of it at all. i feel like i should just pick up and move to key west, too ;) cause that would make me feel better than i do here. well not here, cause i feel perfectly fine here. at school, i mean.
i miss my extended day-ers. as in lea, matt, mark & elena. i missss youuuuu. i miss seeing you everyday. it's weird, cause these people that i have basically only known through extended day...turned out to be just as amazing people outside of that little school. and i love it. soo much.
i feel like i'm stuck in this stupid little cycle that has me saying goodbyes more often than i say hellos. and i don't like it at all. not one bit.
seeing most of those people at school will be awesome. i've mended some rough patches, i would like to think. and i've created some even bigger ones. actually i didn't, but you did. and now i have to deal with it.
blaah i have 8 days. 8 fucking better be amazing, still in the burg days.
tomorrow/monday: new jersey/ct tuesday: day with daddy/ mark's bday party :) yayyy wednesday-saturday: up for grabs. come hang out with me loverrrrs. sunday: MOVING IN. EEEEEEEEEEEK! |
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